Monday, November 15, 2010

I've been terrible

Eating whatever I want, whenever I want. I was only good 1 day all of last week. And since then, I'm scared to get on the scale. My clothes are fitting tight again, and I feel the roll over my hips coming back. Ugh. And I leave for Las Vegas 2 weeks from tomorrow.

So I've started a new regime. I ran on Saturday, and I did my 30 day shred last night. I'm forcing myself to work out once per day, and also to skip breakfast and lunch, for the 2 weeks until I leave. Unfortunately, Thanksgiving is next Thursday so I'll obviously be eating then.

I'm scared to step on the scale. Scared I'll see a number over 125, I haven't been above 125 in months and I couldn't handle it if I were that high again after just 2 weeks of frivolity.

I've also given up any hopes of making it to 115 before Vegas. I don't think it's possible. I'm a failure.

Ugh, I just scratched my ass, and the feeling of fat is disgusting. I have to remind myself yet again that it is MY fault that there's fat there, and I can fix it. I must fix it. I will fix it.

Welcome to a new dawn.

No comments:

Post a Comment

Leave me a message ;)