Honesty

I don't know if my heart is in this anymore.

Firstly-- Skittles, thank you for your brutal honesty. I'm disappointed in me too. It's actually a great reality check to see that someone else is.

Mouse and Shebeelu-- I'm watching out, I know that inviting Mia in can be dangerous (I've read Wintergirls just like everyone else here, right?)... I appreciate your concern. But Mouse, it's ok to not be supportive all the time. We need the honesty here! Be honest with me.


OK, now onward.
I just can't get myself back into the right frame of mind for this to work. I don't know what the deal is. I think part of it is that I'm actually thinner than I've ever been in my adult life and that should be enough. But the reality is that I still HATE the way I look, I still jiggle, and I still feel guilty when I do eat more than I should. The main answer to that is to just not eat those things! So why can't I do it??? I was doing great for about a month right before Christmas, and now I'm totally derailed.

I got a new app on my phone to count calories and stuff, and it's got a barcode scanner included! Super cool, so I just scanned the barcode from my can of soup for lunch and all the info was dropped right in. I LOVE it!

Today I'm at 340 already. I'm just hoping that I'll be good at and after dinner, knowing that I'm starting out way higher than normal. I need to go grocery shopping like today, there's nothing healthy in the house! Hmmm, cereal (fiber 1) it is!

Just gotta order me a new Fitbit and I can get back on the exercise train. It's so hard when DH travels.