Eh.

So I was good yesterday. Thankfully reading all your blogs about staying below 700 or 500 or 300 calories was able to bring me back to my senses. I didn't eat breakfast or lunch, and had a perfectly small portion of pasta with sauce (and a couple of meatballs, not so good, but I needed the protein). So about 400 calories there. I had 2 bites of a brownie, about 100 cals. Then I went to ladies night, had a couple cigarettes, then someone brought out the buffalo wing pretzels, ugh, my weakness. Had probably about 400 cals worth, then a bit of popcorn (air popped, a bit of oil and salt) about 200 cals, and then another 2 bites of brownie when I got home, 100 cals. So I didn't lose, but at least I didn't gain again.

Today I've had an apple. 100 cals. A guy here at work is taking another job, so today's his last day, so we're doing pizza for lunch. That's gonna burn me. But I think I can be sensible this weekend, and I'll definitely be exercising. Plus DH will be gone next weekend, so starting Tuesday (monday off for MLK day) I'll be back down to 500 calorie days for at least a couple days.

We'll see what happens. I just feel like my motivation is suddenly gone and I don't know why. I've also noticed I'm less depressed lately, so I wonder if the two are related? The more depressed I am, the more I am able to focus on losing weight-- the better I feel, I don't focus on it as much. Hmmm, if that's the case, I'm never going on depression meds-- I love the weight loss way too much!

Stay strong lovelies!